Back to Reality...

As many of you know, I am now back at work. And surprisingly, coming back wasn't as dramatic or devastating (emotionally) as I thought it would be. And I really don't even find myself calling home as often as I thought I would. While I think of my kids several times throughout my day, I'm not paralyzed by the thought of being away from them while I'm at work. I guess I have "been there and done that." I just pray for their happiness and safety while I'm away. (I must be growing up).

I do however miss our slow, care-free mornings. Now everything, as I expected, is much more fast paced. Gotta make breakfast, gotta get the kids dressed. Gotta make sure lunch is ready. Gotta make sure enough bottles are made. Oh yeah -- I need to wash a load of laundry. Then there's my lunch, my makeup, my hair, my clothes...It goes on and on. I honestly feel like I'm getting ready all morning long. REALLY! And by the way...how about finding time to spend some quality time with the kids. It's tough, but I hope to find my groove soon.

Meanwhile, Todd is doing a great job handling the night shift. He's in charge of serving dinner, baths, doing more laundry and getting (trying to get) both boys to bed. He's already found a few tricks that even impressed me. And last night he called me from the parking lot at work so I could come out and tell the kids hello. What a guy! The quick visit was just what I needed. Jordan immediately smiled and cooed at me. Tyler only said a brief hello though. He was too engrossed in watching his "Little Bill" DVD for any lengthy conversation. The visit was short - but it was a perfect addition to my night.

This is only my third full day at work, but all in all - I feel good.
I just hope the mornings calm down for me and my sanity's sake.
But I do believe in my heart of hearts - we're all going to be okay.

Thank God!